Current mood:	pensive
Current music:	Always On My Mind - Michael Buble

if i made you feel second best
Why does everything always seem so much better retrospectively?

You know those bad decisions you made last year? Five years ago? And now you go: well that was a good experience at least; I learnt something from that relationship; I grew out of that. But when it's happening, you go: I don't know what to do; this will change everything.

Looking through some old pics every now and then, you remember those birthdays, those end of year school concerts, those book prizes, those family vacations. I don't remember the bad things so much. I remember the friends I made, those cool lollies and softies that no one makes anymore, those games I used to get out of a stupid orange book for my birthday parties. I wonder if I'll remember as fondly the times I'm in now in ten years time, or if you remember more that you don't want to as you grow older.

Why must we be so cynical? I do love most things about life. But it's amazing how one bad thing can throw off your groove. As a whole, a lot of the Gen Ys I know are pretty unmotivated. But we can be a lot more.